Somebody to Love

 A poem I wrote in 2019:

Somebody to Love

As I sit and wait and pray to the Man Above

So alone, I just want somebody to love

someone that will love as much as i do

No game playing, i just need someone real and true

I know...I will not hold my breath waiting

Even though breathing is worse, Im slowly dying

Just knowing that someone to love gives me a little hope

After being hurt all the time, I still can't see how I can cope

My mind is in one place it always seems to wonder

I can't help what I think, although it keeps me from going under

With half a soul, I need the other half to complete me

As soon as we become one I know I'll be happy

Now my heart, wow, my heart sometimes leaves my body

Plenty to go around leaving me cold, my heart is a hottie

As soon as the 4 of us can reunite and call it good

I'll finally be whole and happy like i really should

So alone, i just want somebody to love

As I sit and wait and pray to the Man above

Love, Em

p.s this poem is published in allpoetry.com

Bad Company

Bad Company

I love their duet, their facial expressions, the love was there and I felt it! 

 

Rod Wave - Fight The Feeling (Official Video)

This song is by Rod Wave

Cant fight the feeling because she never finished healing!

Im still healing from things that i think i won't recover from! I am definitely trying to get over child hood trauma and im still healing from alcoholism and drug use! Being sober now, music is the only thing that really gets me thru the bad things! Im trying here, Im really trying!

My Sobriety

My Life of being clean and sober after years of drug and alcohol use! When I quit, I quit as they say “cold turkey”! Actually if I didn’t get pregnant and have a baby, I’d still be in the streets or wherever getting high and drunk! I am now 15 months sober and I have to thank God for putting me in a situation that he knew I needed. My 8 month old baby saved me! And I guess I’ll have to give her daddy some credit, even tho we have had our ups and downs, if it wasn’t for him neither one of us would be blessed with a beautiful baby girl! I love him for her, and that love will never change! I’ll share stories, memories of my past of how I was ruining my life, and stories of my sobriety and the life I live now! I am literally starting over from scratch, from the ground up! I can honestly say I know what it feels like to start from the ground up! To start over with nothing! Keep reading and I’ll keep writing! …..to be continued

                              Love, Me

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To Wait

 So, what's it like to wait on something? I've been waiting all my life, for what? Everything! My current situation, I'm waiting on what God has in store for me. How do I know? They say be patient, something about Good comes to those who wait! Excuse me sir or ma'am, how long is this wait? 

I do have a lot of questions in life, if I don't ask anyone how will I ever know? But if I ask my self do I really have the answers? I'm gonna answer that with, when it comes to living my own experiences, then yes! 

My first question is Who the hell are they? They said this, they said that? That's the only question I have no answer to except they is a plural form of it, so they could be anyone! So now it's what or who is it? Me me me, lol, not really not unless I can say I am it, Mom, and my children could be they! 

Anyway, I could go on and on! And don't mind my run on sentences, my way of writing, I believe in writing how I speak or writing exactly what comes out of my mind! Remember this is my mind! Ahhh! 

Oh yea, waiting...I'm getting impatient waiting on my apartment or house, I'll explain later! Getting off track in my thoughts is a normal life for me! This is the way I live! Now to get all my ducks in a row, lol! 

......to be continued

                          Love,

                                 Me

Forward

 To Move Forward means to not fall Backward?

Does that even make sense, and if it does, can someone please explain? Um...Oh yea, it's me that's writing this huh? Well, before I start to explain all of my 2 senses, or 2 cents, or 2 scents...all of that to me meant eventually I'll get out what my mind wants to say eventually! And if anything I say doesn't make sense please don't be shy, let me know your thoughts or opinion! Everyone is entitled to their own opinions! 

Explanation 1: I am going to be writing about my life, my thoughts, my opinions, facts, and probably a whole bunch of blah blahs! I've never been a blogger, but thought about it a million times! So here I am, My name is Emily or Em, who is em? Em is Me, so this whole writing blog is going to be about the life of emme, yea thats me! haha, this is supposed to be my introduction! 

I'm gonna try here so just give me some time, and like i mentioned before all comments, questions, opinions are wanted! 

one of my mottos "help me, help you, help me" yea in other words I may need some help or advice myself! and hey i heard this writing is supposed to be therapeutic!

So in life I've always wanted to move forward not backward, but that's something we all want huh? Somewhere along the way I went backwards, I'll get to those stories and memories later in another blog, I am happy to say that I have changed my thinking somewhat, and now I am finally moving forward with my life! Yet, I can honestly say it's still very hard to this day to not fall back!

Okay! Duty Calls....I'll get back to ya soon and I'll always sign out with

                                                                  Love, Me