So, It's been a long time since I wrote anything on my blog! So while my now 13 month old baby is napping, here I am! I posted a song, will probably post another! I would like to pat myself on the back because I am still sober! Living the sober life has its ups and downs, but mostly ups! I am working on a better me for myself and my kids! What can I say, Im in love with my babies, and Id do anything to make them happy! I do apologize it has taken so long to get here, but Im here and the further I get in my little ol' life, Im starting to feel more and more free!
Since there is no more substance abuse or alcohol abuse, and not to mention no more physical, emotional, and mental abuse, I still suffer from a disease called depression, anxiety, bi polarism, it all has taken a toll on my mental status! Some days Im home and some days i feel so far away! I eventually come back if that makes sense, but then I get into my feelings and Im either going to cry or get mad! It is still very rare for me to smile, laugh and be happy! Im working on it though!
I am glad I am a mom of my 13 month old, one look at her and she can make my whole world do a 360, and i can totally forget why i was upset to begin with! And, Yes she is my Angel Baby my saving Grace, because if I didn't have her right now, I don't know where I'd be, I wouldn't be sober, I'd probably be out trying to find my next high, or figure out how Im gonna get my next drink so I don't have a hang over! Ugh! I can remember those sick feelings of not having what I needed and I can honestly say I never want to go back to any of that toxicity!
I think about not just my baby but all my human blessings, my other 6 babies and 6 almost 7 grandbabies that i created lol! yes, once again they are my creatures!
anyway, guess I'll post one more song, and maybe one more blog and then Im out!
Have a Blessed Day'
Love Me
** EM **
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